I hate it when someone always doubts you! I hate it when someone is unfair on you! I hate it when someone strangles you tight! I hate it when someone doesn’t trust you at all! And I hate to know that this someone happens to be the person I truly love!
I just hate it! Damn!
I got these comic strips regarding the movie Brokeback Mountain from a forwarded e-mail. Might as well post them here.
I’ve seen the movie “Brokeback Mountain” on pirated DVD a week before its play date. It is about two cowboy men who developed a special kind of friendship for 20 years. Don’t you ever miss watching this multi-awarded film by Ang Lee.
This is a classic song from Michael Bolton. The first time I heard it this year was in “Search for a Star in a Million Season 2” which Kris Lawrence sang in their finals night. Since then, it has been going through my head over and over again. This can be my song for the moment. Check out the lyrics.
How Am I Supposed To Live Without You?
Michael BoltonI could hardly believe it when I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
You said you were leavin’
Someone’s swept your heart away
When I look upon your face, I see it’s true
So tell me all about it
Tell me about the plans you’re makin’
Oh, tell me one thing more before I goTell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been living for is goneI’m too proud for crying,
didn’t come here to breakdown
It’s just a dream of mine
that’s coming to an endAnd how can I blame you,
when I built my world around
The hope that one day
we’d be so much more than friendsI don’t wanna know
the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, even now it’s more than I can takeTell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been living for is goneI don’t wanna know
the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, now that your dream has come trueTell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is goneGone without you…
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone
Yes, today is Rodney’s last day here in the Philippines. Francis and I woke up at 7:00AM. We reached NAIA Terminal 1 by 8:30AM. We were a bit late and Rodney just got in the airport. He told me that he’ll try to go out a little later. But due to lack of time and miscommunication, we never had a chance seeing each other for the last time. There’s nothing I could do but cry. Yes, I cried out loud infront of many strangers, like in some telenovelas. If I could just have a way of bypassing all the airport guards. Good thing Francis was there to comfort me.
Now, from this day until I could follow him in Dubai, I’ll be on my own. And to my precious Rodney, please take care of yourself. I’ll be keeping you here in my heart always. I love you so much.
It is only 2 days from now before Rodney goes to Dubai. He is booked on an 11:00AM flight this coming Thursday. I already filed an incentive leave for tomorrow (our 9th monthsary) and Thursday morning. Am I really prepared? Am I now ready to face each morning without him? I guess not, but I hope I will be. Sigh.
Since Rodney is leaving very very soon, we had an overnight mini Pink Festival last Saturday at Robinson’s Apartelle with some friends: Arnold, Henry, Jim & Brad, and Matt. I brought in a DVD player and 4 movie titles. We watched Bathhouse, TransAmerica, Eating Out, and Doubt/Duda. It was fun watching gay oriented films with gay friends. Hehe.
Last January 19 was Rodney’s 27th Birthday. Birthdays for him are just ordinary days of the year, nothing special. He can actually celebrate his birthday just lying on his bed all day. But me? It should be extravagant, or at least, a small feast with family.
Anyway, I let his birthday be ordinary. I went to work from 8:00AM-5:00PM, while he and his mom went to Divisoria and bought a luggage bag for his Dubai trip. We went to gym at 6:00PM. Afterwards, we decided to dine in at Don Henrico’s Malate. While waiting for our Chicken ala Buffalo Solo Pack and a 10″ Pizza Supreme, I handed him my surprise. I gave him a 2-tone ring. So, both of us now have our own rings (he gave me a diamond ring last December). I was very pleased that I made his birthday more than just ordinary.
On February 2, 2005, my hubby Rodney will be trying his chances in Dubai. When he told me about his plan a few months back, I was really confused. I didn’t know what to do then.
But being a hindrance to someone’s future won’t do any good. So, even it’s hard for me to accept, I need to. Though he promised me that he will be getting me soon. Until the time that I can follow him comes, a long distance relationship should bind us together. It will be hard for the both of us, but we know we can.
I really love this song… nice beat, melody and lyrics. I still don’t know if this will be my song of the year. I hope you all get what I mean. Sigh.
Don’t Forget About Us
Mariah Carey[Intro:]
(Don’t forget about us)
Don’t baby, don’t baby, don’t let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don’t baby, don’t baby, don’t let it go
My baby boy…[Verse 1]
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don’t matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It’d be like that baby[Bridge 1]
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I’m fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don’t forget about[Chorus]
Late nights, playin’ in the dark
And wakin’ up inside my arms
Boy, you’ll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don’t forget about usI’m just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it’s for real, it’s forever
So don’t forget about us[Verse 2]
Oh they say
That you’re in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can’t forget it
How good we used to get it[Bridge 2]
There’s only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that’s a fact
That you can’t deny
So baby we just can’t let
The fire pass us by
Forever we’d both regret
So don’t forget about[Chorus]
[Rap]
And if she’s got your head all messed up now
That’s the trickery
So why you act like you don’t know how this lovin’ used to be?
I bet she can’t do like me
She’ll never be MCBaby don’t you, don’t you forget about us
[Chorus x2]
Don’t baby, don’t baby, don’t let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don’t baby, don’t baby, don’t let it goWhen it’s for real, it’s forever
So don’t forget about us.
