I hate it when someone always doubts you! I hate it when someone is unfair on you! I hate it when someone strangles you tight! I hate it when someone doesn’t trust you at all! And I hate to know that this someone happens to be the person I truly love!

I just hate it! Damn!

I got these comic strips regarding the movie Brokeback Mountain from a forwarded e-mail. Might as well post them here.

I’ve seen the movie “Brokeback Mountain” on pirated DVD a week before its play date. It is about two cowboy men who developed a special kind of friendship for 20 years. Don’t you ever miss watching this multi-awarded film by Ang Lee.

This is a classic song from Michael Bolton. The first time I heard it this year was in “Search for a Star in a Million Season 2″ which Kris Lawrence sang in their finals night. Since then, it has been going through my head over and over again. This can be my song for the moment. Check out the lyrics.

How Am I Supposed To Live Without You?
Michael Bolton

I could hardly believe it when I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
You said you were leavin’
Someone’s swept your heart away
When I look upon your face, I see it’s true
So tell me all about it
Tell me about the plans you’re makin’
Oh, tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been living for is gone

I’m too proud for crying,
didn’t come here to breakdown
It’s just a dream of mine
that’s coming to an end

And how can I blame you,
when I built my world around
The hope that one day
we’d be so much more than friends

I don’t wanna know
the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, even now it’s more than I can take

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been living for is gone

I don’t wanna know
the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, now that your dream has come true

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone

Gone without you…
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone

Yes, today is Rodney’s last day here in the Philippines. Francis and I woke up at 7:00AM. We reached NAIA Terminal 1 by 8:30AM. We were a bit late and Rodney just got in the airport. He told me that he’ll try to go out a little later. But due to lack of time and miscommunication, we never had a chance seeing each other for the last time. There’s nothing I could do but cry. Yes, I cried out loud infront of many strangers, like in some telenovelas. If I could just have a way of bypassing all the airport guards. Good thing Francis was there to comfort me.

Now, from this day until I could follow him in Dubai, I’ll be on my own. And to my precious Rodney, please take care of yourself. I’ll be keeping you here in my heart always. I love you so much.