I had this weird dream yesterday morning…

I bought this magical paperweight. When you hold it, it will show your personal details like name, strength meter, height, weight, current job, status, and many others. And surprisingly, it was telling me that I’m “TAKEN” but I’m currently single. I finally woke up.

I tried to analyze my dream and it was Bear Cuddler who came first into my mind. I didn’t know I’m still carrying that baggage after 5 months of being single. I’m still not over him. Damn.

Bear Cuddler and I broke up two days ago because of different ideas and views in life. I don’t want to expound too much. But long story short, he has a lot of responsibilities to his family and he is determined to follow his sister in the United States. That makes me just the second priority. Still, I’ve tried my best to have him back, but to no avail.

He wanted to bring back the friendship we had before our second chance. But I really can’t… I won’t be able to move on if I still constantly communicate with him. I have to alienate myself first and time will tell when I can comfortably talk to him and regain our friendship.

The saddest part is he didn’t fight for our love and he can afford to lose me that easily. Sigh.